Monday 28 February 2011

Embarrassment Harassment

This is another work in progress. I've been trying to take a leaf out of Indigo Williams' book who told me once she was really trying to push the boundaries of her comfort when writing, subjects like the one below are certainly things I tend to avoid

Eyes with grins,
found normally on faces,
burn skin and scan movement,
as I become,
painfully aware,
of every move,
I make.
Trying hard,
to make
a move,
to this,
pretty,
brunette.

Straight shiney hair,
slowly sliding,
to her,
shoulder blades,
gently bouncing,
off her back,
like,
the brush strokes,
of a delicate drummer,
providing a rhythm,
to accompany the jazz,
every time,
she answers,
one of my,
never ending,
stupid questions.

Paining a picture of perfection,
with my own,
internal airbrush,
whilst I muddy,
my frame,
fouling the air,
between
our heads,
with desperation,
as her attention,
towards me,
slowly diminishes,
like the fading light,
of a solitary car,
moving along,
a dark,
country lane.
In front of an audience,
of my mates,
laughing,
at my,
predictable
decline.

Friday 25 February 2011

House Party

At the moment all roads point to The Roundhouse on March 9th for The Rubix  work in progress show of "House Party." Were now deep into rehearsals and gearing up for lift off so come join us








Friday 18 February 2011

Up Coming Project

I Love music. If it wasn't for music I wouldn't be writing. I picked up a pen because I wanted to write lyrics to Drum and Bass and Garage music. I still do. I was actively involved on a small scale as a MC and rapper for few years before, not intentionally, drifting away. Now things seem to have gone full swing and I've back in the booth, on a project I previously mentioned, with Conrad Murray (Producer, Singer, Rapper, Actor, Director) and Dani Marshall (whom I've worked with many times in the past), we are currently in the process of making an EP with hopefully a few live tricks up our sleevs.
This footage was shot partly at BAC in a live improvisation, and in Conrad's studio...

Monday 14 February 2011

This spirit will not be diluted (work in progress)

This is something I began working on a few weeks ago...



Mates

My Girlfriend thought I was cheating,
When I told her I was meeting,
Donna and stella,
for the evening.

Not Quite.

A few pints,
a lot of banter,
and a passion for grease.

My belly clucks for the pulp of processed meat,
blushing red at whiskey's cheek,
drowning in larger,
we sink deep,
into verbal cesspool's,
where rule's cease,
and profanities rain.

I love seeing my mates.

Cusses fly in unrestricted airspace.
Energy,
breeds energy,
voices become raised,
stories are relayed,
amplified and distorted.
Glasses are raised,
to us,
as friends,
comrades,
mates.

We don't meet merely for the sake,
of partaking,
in alcohol,
booze takes second place,.
Public houses,
as opposed to houses,
provide a neutral space,
for us to congregate.


We don't meet merely to provide,
wingmen,
for when,
we attempt to fly alongside the birds.
These days,
if anything,
it's an escape from the avian race.

As life moves on and we all approach thirty,
like a train,
pulling into a station,
ready to unload a load of commuters,
reluctantly heeding to work in a job they hate,
our meetings as mates,
are few and far between.

This only makes the cake taste that little bit sweeter.
Cherries of news like,
Benny telling he's getting married,
Richard's missus is expecting,
and Gary's got a mortgage,
serve only to pepper the ingredients,
for what is already,
the bakers best kept recipe

Even when I had no news to report,
or,
when Rich was still signing on,
none it mattered.
For that short space of time,
when we meet,
career progression,
success with women,
money in the bank,
just become,
minor crumbs of information,
deriving from slices,
belonging to the cake.

Perceived negative side effects,
such as,
intake of fat saturated take away,
hangovers the following day,
are a small price to pay.


Away from my mates,
I feel England frowns,
everytime I open my mouth.
Concerned I might,
rupture the delicate eggshell skeleton of political correctness,
without ever assessing,
my integrity,
or intentions.
Prosecution judge and jury all rolled into one,
poised to condemn every word,
on the verge,
of slipping off my tongue.

Maintaining a snipers eye on my p's and q's,
was mandatory,
in my upbringing,
along with,
the importance and encouragement,
to step back
and laugh at life,
once in a while.

The communal sharing of stories,
told through beers with my peers,
is a nod to the culture of my forefathers,
who lacked the ability,
to read and write.
They immortalised their legacies,
through music and folk tales,
recited in boozerz,
swimming in ale, guiness and spirits.

Anytime a beer tap pumps liquid kisses into a pint glass their spirits live on.

I doubt my Grandpa would approve,
of the amount of booze,
I consume,
of an evening,
and I'm sure he would have something to say,
about the badge of lad culture I wear,
sold through football,
as well as,
the sise of a,
modern player's wage,
and as for gastro pubs,
we best leave that there,
however,
sitting in a pub,
with my mates,
laughing
being loud,
but not over the top,
regardless,
of whether or not,
this is no longer considered acceptable,
I'm sure he'd fight my corner,
And understand,
the necessity,
and love,
of seeing my mates.

Saturday 12 February 2011

A Cold Turkey Is Still A Bird

A cold turkey is still a bird

I found her like a needle in a playground
It wasn’t long before I found myself,
wrapped around her little finger,
smothering my foresight,
a pillow to my head as,
she sweetly whispered goodnight,
each night
down a mobile phone,,
melting my eardrums,
and frying my brain.

Viewing her lying and scheming,
through rose tinted spectacles,
like Specsavers,
selling specs,
to spectators,
in order to watch,
Specsavers ,
advertisments,
all day and evening.

My friends said,
you're a fool,”
I said,
you don't know her,”
they said,
she's stringing you along,”
I said ,
you don't know her,”
they said,
don't come running to us when it all goes wrong,”
I said,
I'm in it for the long run,
and the only strings here,
belong to a symphony,
playing my favourite song,
so you run along,
in fact,
jog on,
and don't come back..”

Exploiting my weakness must have been easy.
A sitting duck,
stranded at the back of the pack ,
starved of attention.
Struggling to swim in a lake of insecurity,
where identity,
is forged early,
and if not gained,
one can float,
to obscurity,
hidden in the shadows of stronger swimmers,
never having tasted,
the sweet offerings,
from another's hand.

She was the first to throw bread.
The excitement,
created the illusion,
I was no longer paddling,
but flying,
if only internally.
Unleashing feelings I thought belonged only in Hollywood,
and Holyoaks,
lumps in my throat,
and flies in my belly,
eveytime she phoned

Thing is,
she weren’t even that nice.
The benefits of companionship,
and endless promises,
had clouded my head.
I should have known she was a bit dense,
when she said,
Why don't you ever call me babe”?

It was her reassurances,
that validated my existence,
which until then,
felt minimal,
to say the least.
It was this dependency,
on aligning my own self esteem,
on her very being,
which saw her prey,
on my need,
for her,
as she seemed to take pleasure,
playing ker-plunk,
with my soul,
measuring,
the lengths I'd be prepared to go,
anytime,
she threatened to end it all.

I think she enjoyed my consistence.
Knowing that,
whatever the weather,
I'd be over the moon,
to receive a text or a call,

It was like a cartoon rabbit,
with a habit for carrots,
she could dangle an orange stick in front of my eyes,
and I'd be desperate to grab it,
and she knew it.

I was addicted.
Her voice was like self harming by proxy.
The more she kept me hanging,
the harder I clung,
until I went clean,
and concentrated on me,
removing the dependency,
for living through a third party,
for the time being,
at least.

The ability,
to review hindsight,
and laugh,
is a gift,
worth more than Gold,
and should be treasured,

When I told her we were finished,
her final text read,
if dats ow u feel den dats ow u feel”.

Enough said.

What was I thinking?

Monday 7 February 2011

Plastering My Pasty Face On People Is Paving The Way Towards...?

Greetings again

After attending The Tongue In-Chic Poetry Forum  recently in Oxford, I left thinking that I'm never going to get anyway if no one knows who I am. I always believed that regardless how much talent a person had if they weren't willing to put the work in they wouldn't succeed.

In the world of Spoken Word, this hard work I speak of refers to performing (as well as all the work that goes into performing such as writing and practising). I am in the fortunate position of being in London where one can attend a spoken word event pretty much every night of the week. To date, I think I've been to maybe half of those nights on a handful of occasions - in short - not good enough!

With the exception of those rare occasions where a person / band / actor etc is plucked out of obscurity by a major record label or company with the money and power to build a PR machine the sise of Russia, slogging your guts out is par for the course, well, that's the way I see it anyway. So I will be trying my best to attend as many of these events as possible.


Speaking of which, I recently attended 3 events which I hadn't been to before, 2 of which I got to perform at. Starting with a night in Catford, run by Mark Mr T Thompson called Mixed Messages. A great night which was packed, wall to wall, I'm guessing maybe there were a 150 people there perhaps?!



This was taken of me performing at Mixed Messages 

On Thursday 3rd February, last week I performed for the first time at Rum Punch in central London. This night is run by Partners In Rhyme (Comfort and Saran) which again was jam packed with a really good crowd.



Both Pictures taken at Rum Punch by SLOETRY   http://www.facebook.com/l.php?u=http%3A%2F%2Ftinyurl.com%2F63xaq2p&h=4235d

Then On Sunday 6th Febuary I went RRRants at the Canden Eye. I've been aware of the RRRants collective for a while now http://www.rrrants.com/ who run events in and out of London as well as doing a lot of work within Schools. I didn't perform at this event but fellow Rubix member Talia Randal did as well as a host of other really good performers including some wicked music.

I've also been back in the studio this week doing some more music which I hope will begin to see the light of day very soon, to run alongside my pastey face (hopefully) lighting up as many gigs as possible. Here's too it

Paul

Some Photo's

Here are some flyers and "action shots" from various events I've performed at








Taken From The show "The greatest poet that ever lived" at The Banshee in Endinburgh as part of the festival. With his back to the camera is Eusibo Mir form part of Rubix


This was the whole cast of "Better Humans" in July 2009 at BAC. It was my first ever foray into theatre and very memorable


This was the first slam I ever won at Farrago, October 2009


Taken form the Richmond Play festival, at the back is Talia Randal and Sean Mahoney both from Rubix


Taken outside the Carnivale Bar in east Lonodn shortley before gig, Janury 2010




Wednesday 2 February 2011

Some Upcoming Gigs

Yo

Some upcoming gigs for you, and erm...me, of course, me mostly though innit!

Thursday 3rd February
Rum Punch
http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=146673235385730


Thursday 10th February
BAC Homegrown
http://www.facebook.com/BACHomegrown
http://www.bac.org.uk/get-involved/programmes/homegrown/

Thursday 24th Febuary
Bang Said The Gun
http://www.bangsaidthegun.com/news/about/

Friday 25th March
Catapulting Coccoon Arts Carival
http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=296541176061

Thursday 3rd March
BAC Homegrown
http://www.facebook.com/BACHomegrown
http://www.bac.org.uk/get-involved/programmes/homegrown/


Wednesday 3rd March
Rubix Present House Party
http://www.roundhouse.org.uk/explore/portfolios/rubix

Thursday 24th
Homegrown (Last One!!!)
http://www.facebook.com/BACHomegrown
http://www.bac.org.uk/get-involved/programmes/homegrown/


Saturday 9th April
Tounge Foo at Roundhouse
http://www.roundhouse.org.uk/whats-on/productions/tongue-fu-tales

See you there, hopefully.....

Paul